This week has been an up and down twist and turn emotional roller coaster. I have experienced the highs of having a Senior who got accepted to the college of his choice with scholarships. I have experienced the lows of having a high school Senior who got accepted to the college of his choice, in Philadelphia. Philadelphia is not close to Texas. This we know, and tears come easily and they seem to not care where I am. Carpool, grocery store, gym, Hallmark store, writing this blog. It’s a tug of war between being elated and knowing we have prepared him and feeling this sense of “What is happening?” It’s surreal, that’s the only way to explain it.
Last night was Senior Prom. The high school isn’t giving us parent time to recuperate. Prom. Graduation. See why the emotions have been all over the place?
While we were taking pictures I thought “How? When did this happen?” I promise it was yesterday that he was playing with Thomas the Trains, running around the church hallways and snuggling with his Bear in the Big Blue House blanket. Also, when he was little if I would get on to him for something he would WINK at me. Do you know how hard it is to keep a straight face when a three year old winks at you??
After the driver whisked them away to prom, after I cried, after all the feelings, I walked out of our room and saw our youngest son laying in the living room watching TV. He had wrapped his favorite stuffed animal in a blanket so it wouldn’t be cold and I thought “Please. Please stay this innocent and little for as long as possible.”
I’m not sure where you are on your journey of parenthood but CHERISH these moments. They will always be our babies. But we must hold them loosely because we are just their stewards. They are the Lord’s and His plans for them are so much grander than we could even imagine.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”